It’s a custom in Western societies, some of them anyway, like ours, to resolve to do better or to change some aspect of our behavior and/or our lives, on the first day of the New Year. Generally, we declare these resolutions in advance of New Year’s Day and hold off on actually implementing them until The Day arrives.

So in the spirit of all this, these are my New Year’s Resolutions:

And in order to keep these resolutions I will do my very best not to change one single goddam thing about myself. It’s taken me an entire lifetime to become the cranky, foul-mouthed bastard that I am, and I like what I’ve achieved a lot. A lot of others don’t, but that’s their problem. If they don’t like the way I am, then stay the hell away from me and be happy.

I don’t allow myself to be anyone’s victim, and it’s a good thing too, because the older I get, the more a lot of people see me as victim fodder, and the more surprised they are when that doesn’t work out very well for them. It has nothing to do with me and everything to do with the concept of age and seeing old age as weakness. It is weakness to a certain point, of course it is, but a wrinkled face doesn’t necessarily mean a frightened mind. I like that line in Dune, where Paul Atreides says “Fear is the mind-killer”. It is. I do feel fear like all of us, but I learned long ago to ignore it and look away from it in my mind, to push it away immediately and keep my focus clear. Fear inhibits action.

What I still have not yet learned to control so readily is anger. I can lose myself not just to anger but to real rage fairly easily, when I might be better off not doing so. It always seems to work out well for me afterward, but at the time I’m raging away, I’m also always holding the reins on it and never letting it go too far… which may be why it tends to end well for me. Sometimes you just have to show some people in the rawest way possible that they’ve really pissed you off, to get them to back off. Fortunately this is a very rare event. 99.9% of the time I get along great with everybody, and I have to admit, life is more fun that way.

So yeah, New Year’s resolutions are for those who are still working on being the person they want to be. Nothing wrong with that, in fact it’s a good idea. Most of us could use some improvements in ourselves.

So, HAPPY NEW YEAR, all you thousands of loyal readers. Resolve to be happy for the whole year.

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